Round 2 of hospital stays for baby David started yesterday. Thought they were going to have to check me into a psych ward. It started with another doctor visit to check his weight, then a bilirubin test since he still looked a little yellow. The machine in my pediatrician’s office only goes up to a 20 and baby D was off the charts. Thy sent us to Long Island Jewish Medical Center in New Hyde Park to get re-tested for a more accurate reading.
We spent several hours in the pediatric emergency room before they came to do blood work. My poor baby at only 5 lbs has such tiny veins that they were digging in his arm to get blood. Tears streamed down my face hearing him cry out in pain and I wanted to wrap him in blankets and just run out. They finally got the sample they needed and we waited. And waited. When they came in with a result of 20.8 and told us he was being admitted I lost it.
I am aware that jaundice is common and that it is fixable. I am aware that he doesn’t have a serious medical issue. I am beyond thankful for that, but it doesn’t change the fact that this tiny baby is continually stuck with needles and wires and can’t be home with our family. The frustration and sadness has become too much for me to ‘stay strong’ through.
Overnight his level came down to a 12 and this morning the doctors took him off of phototherapy again. We’re awaiting good numbers at 3pm and hoping he can come home if things continue to go well. He will be carefully monitored by our pediatrician, and if he knows what’s good for him he’ll never scare mommy like this again. Or he’ll be so grounded.
Our family and friends have been so supportive and wonderful through all of this and I can’t begin to express how much I appreciate all of the kind words and prayers through texts and Facebook. It means the world to us to know everyone is pulling for our baby. We love you all dearly.